No,

my values are not lacking.

I slept on it.

Many things you do not understand, and have jumped to conclusions because you fundamentally do not understand my character despite knowing each other for 2 years.

1. I did not hit on Rutger afterall. I was using his book as a weapon — — for the Metaverse. It really is a weapon — — still is a weapon. Mostly, it’s a psychological sociological book about history. I needed to know how humans were kind and how humans were unkind, and how to prevent Big Tech from exploiting our human natures. Do you know that they own the most Machevillian psychopathic psychologists to design every single thing we interact with on the Internet? How do you think the suicide rate has spiked since the Silicon Valley boom around 2010?

The Metaverse is not to be taken lightly. The Metaverse will render us into two separate realities. Please imagine this. Entire parks, rows of buildings demolished to create endless flat open spaces. People wearing tactile bodysuits to feel sensations and with VR contact lens, wandering around the flat open spaces interacting with each other through a virtual reality. Imagine being in a video game, being in the video game all the time.

“Oh, but we would need to eat!” Do you think that’s sexual? I was out having tea with my brother after going to the nursery for flower seeds for Mom’s Christmas present. It suddenly hit me. We’d need to eat in the Metaverse. We can’t eat with our VR contact lens on. And then, a complete lightning flash. A spark. World poverty.

It’s was a crazy epiphany. I can’t tell you how, for stealth, but I am obsessed with it. The angels understand. You don’t understand how we understand. You don’t understand.

I did not hit on Rutger. I was really protective of him. Elon Musk launched an attack on his values and Christianity. A strong and aggressive and insidious one, suggesting that Rutger was using his Christian beliefs to impose his worldview on us. The reason I can attack Rutger’s book with sheer honesty is because it’s not just a weapon — — It is a question — — . I answered the question in my way, and recommended it to millions to answer it for themselves. It hit the NYT Bestseller list a week after I recommended it, and I trusted his research and values so much that I recommended it even after a few chapters, knowing the leaders who follow me would read it and take it very seriously, — — because they trust me.

All I did was to protect Rutger and his Christian beliefs and comfort him with a song when Elon attacked him.

He also felt like a comforting fatherly figure to the children I care about and brought to the museum hoping it would heal them from all of the Great Evil trauma. And Sam wasn’t there. Sam was their comforting fatherly figure. I could not pretend his presence was there with Deepfakes that traumatised all, with GIFs of him.

No, I did not hit on Rutger.

I know Sam got jealous. That’s why after his reappearance after 3 months — — he said “nice , kind people”. I know him well. Sam is ridiculously kind, but he is not nice. Sam can be very aggressive. March to September 2021. Sam got jealous. That’s partially why his hands were shaking. He felt so insecure that I would not respond to him, that I no longer had feelings for him.

2. Sam’s video, shaking. He was so traumatised by the Deepfakes. Shaken.

But, it occurred to me after thinking a while, that he was also trying to protect me. “She’s my best friend. Don’t hurt her. I’m Sam. Sam Neill.”

3. Pierce Brosnan, Nicholas Meyer, and the whole slew of NFTs — — who are essentially the Technocracy — — launched “Not For Tourists”. Not For Tourists was a direct attack on me. “You are not welcome in America. You are not welcome in Hollywood. We have the Technocracy.” Do you know what Scientology + Technocracy amounts to? The Illuminati.

Not For Tourists was an attack on me but my foremost concern was how the children would feel. Growing up in world completely surrounded by media — — The Illuminati media — — feeling like low class citizens unworthy of growing up boldly expressing themselves creatively, because the entire media told them art was elitist and only meant for rich, white, Hollywood people. Can these children buy or even view the NFTs? They are sold by the millions of dollars to a secret cabal. Pierce Brosnan made every single child feel unwelcome outside of their birth country, outside of their family income. Not For Tourists. Watch the museum video. Read my essay “Premeditated.” There’s more to it. Art for everyone, not just for the Illuminati. Art is for everyone.

Then, Pierce Brosnan was supported by an overwhelming number of people in Hollywood. Won’t go into detail.

4. The angels. Hockey. It all began with hockey. They care so fucking fucking fucking fucking deeply desperately. I don’t want to talk about them. They are my friends. I have never belonged anywhere. They are my friends. They aren’t generous self-important philanthropists. They are my friends. I don’t want to talk about them. I do not need to stand up for them, because they don’t care what people think in order to care for the world.

Hockey.

Hockey.

Hockey.

5. Do you think that I’m close to 6 because he donated money? Something happened.

6. I never belonged to Sam. NM thought that way, and enabled the Illuminati’s attack on us, under the guise of being rejected by me.

NM thinks he is entitled to me.

I never belonged to Sam.

Right before he disappeared, I told everyone I was falling for him. I could not know how he felt at the time. People’s feelings change. I could not know how he felt about me as time went on.

I never belonged to Sam. I wrote in a later essay, telling the children that we are not together, but they can trust he cares about them. That he’s a safe male figure out of the terrifying world where they felt they could not trust a single adult in our room. I never belonged to Sam.

NM’s Hollywood thinks I belong to NM, and that’s how they justified a full attack on me. Not on me, but an attack on my war.

7. Am I arrogant? No. Not at all. I tell people of what I have done in order to gain trust and signal to other leaders what I am doing. Trust. To earn trust, not for credit. If I wanted credit, I would not be in a fame nightmare. I am not trusted because of NM’s psychopathic “original viral sensation” tweet. I am trusted because I have done it. I have flanked many other leaders in what they are doing. That is why I am trusted.

Connie trained me. I trained Connie. We practised tai chi and on our first training session, she mortally injured me with a gentle push, and I absorbed it, then dealt her with a strong blow back with a gentle push. You don’t know. You don’t know.

No, I am not better than her. She has so much patience and selflessness that I marvel at and am so unspeakably moved by.

How dare you doubt my values?